I’m not dumb. You say it doesn’t take much to confuse me. Its not that I’m stupid and simple things confuse me because I am stupid. Small things are just to boring and unimportant to mine or your life. There are bigger more interesting things to learn and to do. And all thomsen bigger and better things in this world that intruded me more then trying to understand some sexist joke you just used to insult me. But I am not good enuff for all thouse bigger and better things. Thats why I didn’t really finish high school and thats why I’m stuck always wishing for things I will never get, because I think I am not good enuff.

Its been 3 weeks since i was sober for more then 24 hours. I have been high everyday all day and i love it. Everything is beautiful and i couldnt be happier. Work is awsome i know and chill with so many more people. Last night i went to a bar and watched my friend adam who i sit next to at work play and sing in his band. I finnaly met his fieance she is so nice and really easy to talk to. chris came with me it was great we all got along really well. Me and chris also are going so well. Our sex life is amazing and i just love him so much. I love that i am so high right now and just love everythinh.